I know I have a lot of new followers who are just beginning to learn about Ilana's journey. I created this video of her journey a few months ago and shared it on her Facebook group, but forgot to share it here for those who aren't on Facebook... Here you go! Thank you for all your prayers and support!
I stumbled accidently on your story and it is like it was meant to be. You see I developed a goiter and have been treated for hypothyroidism for several years. The goiter had worried my dad about every time he saw it he would get after me to get it checked out even though I was under a doctors care. I had seen a surgeon and we had scheduled surgery but my dad had fallen ill and was diagnosed with late onset Parkinson disease and he was I'm his mid 80s. My mother needed my help so I postponed this until after he passed what will soon be a year on May the 12th. The journal entry you had made about it being OK not to be strong all the time caught my eye, because of my enormous grief of the past year and then being told that what was going to be removed from my throat, how big, you know all the gory details. I am scared half to death that by now it's cancer. I'm already dealing with so much with I guess midlife changes. I came to my parents late in their life and adore them . I've cared for them as they had gotten older like almost a reverse from child to parent in our roles. My children are grown and in collage and it just seems too many changes right now . Then I had about got a grip on this mid life changes and wanted to start living a little for me, only to be knocked down ,what feels like again.
I feel so guilty complaining or sharing my story because I've lived a life yet your sweet baby has just began. I just wanted you to know that brave little girl has inspired me. I'm still not sure if it's cancer or not, and I don't know what lies before me.
But I pray everything goes good for your sweet child and she goes on living a long healthy full life.
You made a comment that you wondered how God was going to use your trials. Well I'm not much, but I'm a retired EMS person and a mom, but you and your family ,especially your little. Girl have encouraged me . I'm still terrified of what road lies ahead, but I can look back and remind myself of your daughters story..
Paula, please don't feel guilty complaining or sharing your story! Everyone's story is important and everyone's life is hard in so many different ways! Thank you so much for sharing your story with me and for your sweet encouraging words. Our family will be praying for you! Please get checked by your doctor and keep me updated so we know specifically how to pray for you. I pray it's not cancer, but if it is, God is with you every step of the way!Delete